Overseas Karma: When Culture Clash Met a Visa Nightmare, No Remorse.
TW*** mentions of SA
The relentless hum of homesickness had become my constant companion since moving abroad. Last year, the cracks in my marriage deepened under the weight of visa pressures and the sheer isolation of being thousands of miles from my family. My husband and I separated briefly, and in that vacuum of vulnerability, longing for any familiar comfort, I started seeing G. He was Indian too, which offered a deceptive sense of safety, a shared understanding of the expat struggle. We spent time together, a temporary balm for the loneliness that often overwhelms you here.
One night, after I clearly said ‘goodnight’ and retreated, he violated that trust, that boundary. In a foreign country, far from the protective embrace of my *maa* and *bhai*, the assault left me feeling profoundly lost and utterly voiceless. Who do you tell? How do you explain the cultural nuances of shame, the fear of jeopardizing your fragile standing, your visa, to authorities who might not understand? The incident became another silent burden added to the invisible struggles of building a life abroad.
Months later, the expat grapevine, which carries both gossip and solace, brought news. G had been in a horrific accident; both his legs were amputated. When I heard, amidst the usual platitudes of karma and fate, I searched for remorse within myself. I found none. No flicker of pity, no pang of guilt. Perhaps it’s the constant fight to carve out an identity, to belong, to succeed against all odds in a foreign land that hardens you. Or perhaps, it was just a stark, raw sense of a grotesque, delayed justice, a cold comfort in a world where I felt I had none.
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